I can distinctly remember the first time I saw a full-cabaret show live.
February 2012. Toronto.
I had been training in a heels program for about five months, and several of the more seasoned dancers were performing in new show at a stunning, very Chicago-esque lounge. I had already been captured by the principal dancer of our company (and the owner of the new company I was going to see), but was completely unsure of what I was getting myself into.
I was not only mystified by the interactive choreography, guest performers and storyline, but by the audience. People were coming out for a vintage experience, to be transported into a tale and watch something unfold live.
After the first act, I was hooked. I knew this is what I wanted to do with my life.
I realized I wasn't strong enough yet. Instead, I gunned all my energy during my last semester of university into school, finding a job and training as much as I could with my other dance troupe. But that mystical show hadn't left my mind.
After that summer, I realized I could still dance and work my "real" job. I admit that it's tough (I'm still doing it!)
However, I wasn't being creatively satisfied as an artist - my everyday life wasn't inspiring me to make good art. I realize now I was hiding my art from influencing my everyday life.
I wanted to wear pin-up clothing, flowers in my hair, dance in cabaret heels, flirt and talk to the audience. I also wanted to have a real paycheque, a career and wear a pencil skirt walking down Bloor Street.
After moving to Vancouver, I once again put this cabaret dream aside to pursue other opportunities - which have all lead me down the right path. From the outside, it might look like I walked into this, but trust me, I've been dying to do this kind of work for over two years.
Now I'm performing alongside five other beautiful dancers in The Lovers Cabaret in an interactive, mysterious, unique and interesting show from our newest sector, The Noir Series.
I've had the opportunity to experience dance in a completely different way. I've been extremely challenged as a choreographer. I've pushed my personal and artistic limits to the edge. I've accepted the comfort in being uncomfortable.
"It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are." - E.E. Cummings.
For the first time in my life, I feel like I found who I really am. And I'm happier than ever. Really.
The Lovers Cabaret presents: Mistresses at The Fox Cabaret, Vancouver one last time, July 5 at 8:30PM. Limited tickets still available at
www.theloverscabaret.com
Even better? That principal dancer / owner of the company I admired in Toronto? She's giving me personal feedback, character and performance advise (thank you Facebook!)
